What Are You Afraid Of?
I was listening to gospel music today, and I started thinking about certain things; and one of them was fear. I asked myself what I'm afraid of, and my answer was weakness. I don't like to show weakness, nor vulnerability; and if you ever experience that part of me, then I really love, and trust you a lot. I generally don't like pity nor sympathy from anyone. If you ever going to do something for me, then let it be out of love, not out of sympathy, or pity.
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When I lost my parents, I barely told anyone; and even when I posted about it, I ended it with, "please don't tell me sorry". I lost the human that loved me the most - my mum; and I may never be able to get her love, and understanding from any human again. De@th is a part of life so I don't worry so much about that. However, I decided to share this - maybe it will encourage someone - there is nothing you lose that you can't get back except a loved one!
We are afraid of losing what we have all the time, holding on to it so tight that not a soul can touch it. We think by hiding it from the world, it's hidden and it's ours. Nothing is. Nothing ever will be.
For nothing ever was.
If you think there is anything that you have, that's yours, be it money, a house, or a job--it's nothing but an illusion. They can all disappear in one blow. One blow, my friend.
Here we are, so insecure that we are afraid of restarting our lives, so we just carry on trying to sort out the current mess. The thought that we should give it all up and just start all over - with nothing - might cross our minds some time; sure, but we get scared and we push away anything that scares us.
There is nothing I can ever achieve or gain that I cannot lose, in a matter of seconds. You have never gained enough to not be able to lose it all, in just a few minutes. What you think is yours, was never yours and will never be yours. Whatever you make here, you leave here. You came naked and you're going to go back naked. So what are you afraid of? Let all be lost. Let them take away everything. As long as you have your heart beating strong, as long as you have your nostrils working fine, as long as blood flows in your veins, you will live, you will breathe, and you can get it all back--again and again. For if you can do it once, you can damn well do it again.
For nothing ever was.
If you think there is anything that you have, that's yours, be it money, a house, or a job--it's nothing but an illusion. They can all disappear in one blow. One blow, my friend.
Here we are, so insecure that we are afraid of restarting our lives, so we just carry on trying to sort out the current mess. The thought that we should give it all up and just start all over - with nothing - might cross our minds some time; sure, but we get scared and we push away anything that scares us.
There is nothing I can ever achieve or gain that I cannot lose, in a matter of seconds. You have never gained enough to not be able to lose it all, in just a few minutes. What you think is yours, was never yours and will never be yours. Whatever you make here, you leave here. You came naked and you're going to go back naked. So what are you afraid of? Let all be lost. Let them take away everything. As long as you have your heart beating strong, as long as you have your nostrils working fine, as long as blood flows in your veins, you will live, you will breathe, and you can get it all back--again and again. For if you can do it once, you can damn well do it again.
Xo, Moxie!
Poured your heart into this one
ReplyDeleteThe honesty in this. Thanks moxie for the encouragement
ReplyDeleteI keep wishing you’re my sister, gf or a member of my family just so I can brag with you
ReplyDeleteSame lol 😂
DeleteThe last part moxie, the last part. Thank you
ReplyDelete“Nothing ever was ours”. This has changed my mentality about lyf. Thanks
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